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Tuesday, August 23, 2005

I had a really bad fall last week. It hurts as if my arms are been pulled apart and I was practically crippled for a few days. On the way to recovery but however my nose is starting to feel the change in weather again. I hate having a blocking nose as you will feel like the mucis is backflowing into your throat.

Reflecting on my 'sickbay', I thought of many things. Thins I should do now and things I should not do until time is ripe. I have this knack of finishing things(multi-tasking) as soon as possible and i will be able to do other things. Not all things work this way, They do not come to an end and almost nothing will ever reach a end. Though I realised this 'new' principle, I was still unable to follow it but still trying to discipline myself. I keep on fantasizing about things while I know it may happen or it may not.

Discipline is really hard to achieve and people who really achieved them are usually the people that will do well in whatever they do. Amongst the ten commandment, who really obey them in this new era of highly intellectual people. For some whom I know they said we should not be doing this or that and those are wrong yet they themselves do the 'bad'things. Who are people to condemn people? but should we let people know their mistakes. Confusing world, yet life goes on.

Quote: Speak when you have to speak talk when you have to but smile always no matter what
Leon |5:06 AM

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

On my way to school and it was earlier then usual. I wanted to read the classical book that I had taken from my shelves. Wow! The first 3 pages were all about the plot and just by the look at it, it is like 1000+ words for 3 pages. aanyway, since i started it and decided to finish it.

Today's subjects were are mostly my favourite. They is only 3 periods on language and the rest was maths and science. It was 1h45min straight and it will be boring for the start of the day. Indeed, it was. I then took out my biology guidebook to revise and who knows, my book was taken away again for the 4-5th time. I didnt want to get it back and pulled a long face throughout the lesson.

Biology time, there was food test done on weird stuff to test which one is the urine and other stuff.Prawn! Drawing the prawn , I realised that the prawn is a very complex being. It can hide its legs in the head and have extra fins and a fan-like tail to help it swim. It's rather amazing since I had been eating without knowing what the prawn really look like other than it's like a comma. Chemistry, I didnt have my book and I was sleeping so wwasntt paying much attention. Mrs Kang was being evil today. She had a girl put out of class so I didnt want to piss her off during her lesson by sleeping. Maths was monotonous and I was doing other mathematics stuff. Later on, I had mock exam and it was a breeze. Didnt crack much of my brain but slacking and looking else where until ms Yeap called me. 4 plus then, I am going to meet my puppy love at 5. She really has changed but she is still as innocent as before. Spent an hour or so, I sent her home and soon I'm home.

Why must things change? I do not actually know why but there is this endless trouble to solve the changing situation. Unknowingly, people change. Some change for the better and others for the worse. My change was slow but some was fast. Mr cuckoo of the year may just changed overnight into a remarkably handsome guy. I do not want to change but inadvertently changed. Worst of all, I was becoming bad in every way. Struggling to keep as simple as it is, I got very short tempered and over-awared over things. It may be part of life but people said that love will never change. Looking back, my love for my puppy love didnt change. Maybe, it is true.
Leon |3:12 AM

Monday, August 15, 2005

Woke up earlier then usual but I was soon back asleep. "Leon ar...dun sleep le ar!!!" I had no choice but to wake up. My sis was at the table eating with her eyes closed and there I stood. I did not have any appetite so i drank my milk and went to change. Should I drop Chinese?This question came to my mind. I still needed some time to think.

Leaving the house earlier, I was hoping to be able to meet her in the earling morning. I missed it but I walking very slowly to school with my camera on to catch any phenomenal things. I watched every car passing by me and I want to have one of my own. This car which I always see in the morning was not parking at its usual lot. Who cares anyway. Honda, Lexus, jaguar,mazda and many more. I was in school already.

When I reached school, everyone was boring. No much life in them and they seemed that they had been zapped off all the energy in them. We were back in class but half of the class were missing. Then everyone came in one by one. Mrs Chan then seemed to be in high spirit. She wore a shirt that was too small for her and she treated us Ice cream. Could she be tapping all our youth and repaying us with Ice cream? It was not something that will ever happen. Anyway, I got my ice cream and the other lessons were as usual. Ms yeap had a haircut and she looks much better. Haha.

There was a super duper cheap electronic sale in my school. I was tempted but in the end didnt get any. I had no use of them. Studying in school with eelen, shi yong and may, I could study better than at home because I will be ending up in front of this computer I am using now. Mrr Lua advised me to carry on Chinese then I didnt want to. I had many second thoughts after I made a decision. He told me he would give me a thumb drive if I stay. I didnt want the thumb driv badly but i wanted to test if he will get one for me. I will stay on if he had got one. I went back studying. Having a headache, I was tired very soon. I packed my bag and went to find mr lua again and got the opt out form. I walked home with mr lua hoping that he may give me the thumbdrive but he didnt.

I was on the couch watching television then and I decided to carry on. I had my dinner and rest awhile. Now I am here, jamming my room with my shouts and scrams. I want to break free but I do not know from what.

Quote: Pain is your friend. It visits you when you need a rest. SO REST WELL
Leon |4:52 AM

Sunday, August 14, 2005

After been inspired by Mr Njoo and the cocky punk who said I am going RJC next year, I woke up and began my revision. Famished, I was rummaging the kitchen cupboards. There was hardly any sight of FOOD. A bright light reflected into my eyes,and there stood a tin of pineapple tarts. Bad thing to start a day with but I just ate them. Sweet and tasty and it is very sticky. The high sugar content just made me so intoxicated that I cant sit down to study.

Slacking for sometime then I went back to revise my biology. Cheese is expensive because of the different types of bacteria an fungal treatment it went through. It is boring to study alone so I was surfing the internet for new faces :). I am not desperate but it is just that i want to know people and that might just be. I actually found one but I felt stupid then i went back studying but doing maths this time. Mathematics is really never boring and I can just do maths and another thing at the same time.

I thought of my future. I actually wanted to be a cardiologist or dentist ( new ). What if I didnt make it? I may end up being a person with no more hope and direction in life. I aint going to let that happen. Feeling motivated as ever, I did maths while I was slacking. Weird? Actually it is possible. Try listening to the person talking then imagine what is going on then do your work. It's fun when you able to simulate it. hmm...never mind if you cant.

Can time slow down? I feel that the earth is spinning quicker lately. It was eveing already then had my mum's mee goreng. I gonna have to watch my diet soon. Eh I wont want to be ending up in a hospital or a rocking chair and lead a sedentary life. I am going to be round Singapore, the world, spreading the word of God. Going back to studying soon, I just felt so enthusiatic in writing my next blog.

Quote: Keeping believing it and looking forward to it and you will get it
Leon |4:39 AM

Saturday, August 13, 2005

" 90 miles outside chicago..." my alarm sounded off. Muffling it with my pillow i went back to sleep, I was attacked by microbes. Oh no! I woke up with eyes wide open and I had still my biology homework to rush through. Argh! I was packed for the day and had to rush to my student's house after school. Mr Njoo was late...by 45 minutes. It didnt matter much to me cause I just look forward for Mr Njoo's lessons. He is brilliant and a great strategist. I has always looked up to people like him.Why? Aint they just great...15 minutes lessons but I was like a sponge absorbing what he had said.
Time's up, I got to go for the astronomic Rosa Lein lesson. Another person I respect too. She just make things simple enough for me to absorb. Yes! She is the catalyst that breaks down complex English Language into simple abc. We went through the time line and it has been ten times better than how ---- went through. After that we went to meet mr njoo again for the things we missed out. He was just inspiring and I want to be someone like him except I want me to be me at the same time.
I rushed home and had a quick lunch then scurried into my dad's car. I was late as usual but my student's mum is always happy to see me arriving at her house. Maybe I was the only one who could ever control that pesky boy. As expected I knew he wont learn his spelling or finish his homework. I gave him time to learn and giving me some time to slack too. He is smart as he finished leanring 30++ words in mere 5 minutes. Could I change my brains with his? Time flies quick and soon it was over.
When I got home, I was tired but I did my biology revision and it was terrible. I could not get it into my mind and then I went for a swim. Suprisingly I was able to recall what I read just then. Refreshed, I went to do some revision before i met up with the 2 new believers saved during biterace. Service was slow but the pastor made many good points. Admit, Standing up and believing is the way to take courage.
I made new friends, which are real smart and confident ones. The world is changing every splint micro millisecond. I was out of the auditon which i was not suprised. Haha. I hung around in BK with TT and ZY. Studying for 2.5 hours, we slacked then I was heading home for a good hot shower. Here I am blogging and soon will be heading to my cosy snoopy print bed.

Quote: It's the end when it's good. When it's is bad, it's never the end
Leon |8:17 AM